♥ Thursday, January 29, 2009 ♥
Relieved
Last Monday, I already finished my revalida. Yes there was a lot of times that I stuttered but all in all I think I did a pretty good job. Now here comes the more challenging part, meeting our quotas! God help me w/ this :( I will surely miss my SMTP batchmastes, our so-called "sessions", my jerfriends, the oh-so boring lectures and of course,our dear Sir Nap. Here comes reality and reality, I must face.
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7:05 PM
♥ Monday, January 19, 2009 ♥
Review: Haunting of Molley Hartley
Rating : 1 star (for the hot leading man! I love Chace Crawford)
I expected an "Exorcism of Emily Rose" level of scariness in this movie but what I got is the complete opposite. Yeah, yung ibang parts nakakagulat pero dahil nagtatakutan kami all along ng friends ko na I watched with. To add pa, I don't like the message that the movie is implying. Its like their saying na its okay to sell your soul to the devil if you want to have the power and success. Although, I must say the actress who played Molly is really good and she's really pretty, almost angelic. :)
Labels: movie review
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10:28 PM
♥ Sunday, October 12, 2008 ♥
I'll be back soon...
I'll be giving you full blast updates in the coming days :)
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9:53 PM
♥ Saturday, February 23, 2008 ♥
For Med-Allied Students (Nursing, Pharmacy, Dentistry, Medicine, etc.)
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2:29 PM
♥ Friday, February 22, 2008 ♥
The Story of Us
Last Valentines Day has been a turning point in my relationship. It was the time that I suddenly realized that I have grown tired of the three year-commitment that I was in. Things were not the same as before, both of us have changed and this brought about a gap on our so-called compatibility.
"He was not the same man I said yes too", I told Mia, who was a friend whom I can blurt out all my crappy shit about life and love. As I have gradually noticed that my boyfriend grew cold to me – meaning, he was no longer sweet. The guy whom is the first and the last to text me everyday seemed to no longer exist. He didn’t even have a present for me last Valentines Day, which made me really upset. This may sound really childish, but I really do appreciate thoughtfulness. I want to feel that I am remembered even in small ways, even a letter or a card will do. He also transformed into this monster who now blurts out hurtful words to me. As they say, emotional scar is the most difficult to heal. I am sensitive and I don’t want to hear those kind of things – most specially, not from him. It seemed to me that he became a stranger. That our 3 long years provided him no lesson about who I am and what I do and don’t like. And at this point I realized that a spoon is now just a spoon in our relationship. The spark was no longer there, and the magic already faded away. We just have to move on and go on our separate ways.
As I confided Mia my sentiments on my relationship, she recommended that I should watch the movie of Michelle Pfeiffer and Bruce Willis entitled “The Story of Us”. She said that I could relate very much to the story and probably learn from it. But even before I had the time to watch the flick, I and my boyfriend already got back together. I really can’t explain why, but there’s something in me that says that I should not loosen my grip - that even though the 3 year relationship has grown tiresome already, there is still a reason to hold on. After watching the movie, that reason was given a face – our history. This line of Katie (Michelle Pfeiffer) from the movie really moved me:
Katie: That's not why I'm saying Chow Funs. I'm saying Chow Funs because we're an us. There's a history here, and histories don't happen overnight. In Mesopotamia or Ancient Troy there are cities built on top of other cities, but I don't want another city, I like this city. I know what kind of mood you’re in when you wake up by which eyebrow is higher, and you know I'm a little quiet in the morning and compensate accordingly, that's a dance you perfect over time. And it's hard, it's much harder than I thought it would be, but there's more good than bad and you don't just give up! And it's not for the sake of the children, but God they're great kids aren't they? And we made them, I mean think about that! It's like there were no people there, and then there were people and they grew, and I won't be able to say to some stranger Josh has your hands or remember how Erin threw up at the Lincoln Memorial. And I'll try to relax, let's face it, anybody is going to have traits that get on your nerves, I mean, why shouldn't it be your annoying traits, and I know I'm no day at the beach, but I do have a good sense of direction so I can at least find the beach, which isn't a weakness of yours, it's a strength of mine. And God you’re a good friend and good friends are hard to find. Charlotte said that in Charlottes Web and I love how you read that to Erin and you take on the voice of Wilber the Pig with such dedication even when your bone tired. That speaks volumes about character! And ultimately, isn't that what it comes down too? What a person is made of? That girl in the pin helmet is still here 'bee boo bee boo' I didn't even know she existed until you came and I'm afraid if you leave I may never see her again,even though I said at times you beat her out of me, isn't that the paradox? Haven't we hit the essential paradox? Give and take, push and pull, the yin the yang. The best of times, the worst of times! I think Dickens said it best, 'He could eat no fat, his wife could eat no lean', but, doesn't really apply here does it? What I'm trying to say is, I'm saying Chow Funs because, I love you.
Suddenly it hit my head that yes, we do have our history. Three years is history and as Katie said, you don’t make it overnight. I may just be overwhelmed by my hatred that I forgot that within those three long years, there’s more good to it than bad. I can’t expect that the guy I said yes with at 18 would the same guy I am with now at 21. People change. It is inevitable. The key is to accept and keep up with the change. As Rachel (Katie's best friend) said to Ben (Bruce Willis) in the movie, “Ben, the only way a relationship works is if we both grow and change together”. Maybe this was just a challenge in our relationship and the lesson is, to hold on to the good things you’ve been through. You don’t just give up on something that has been a great part of your life. Have faith. Because in the end, what matters the most is the person who have accepted you fully despite your flaws.
To Jevie, I love you and I’m sorry if I have been weak at times.
Labels: love
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